>He was taught a man shouldn't complain >Keep your mouth shut and harden up, he had been told times and times over >it had done him some good >he barely complained at all >at anything >the older kids in school was on him, but he pulled through >he even started putting things in his lunch sandwiches to mess with his tormentors >he didn't complain >when his bike broke, he fixed it >when mom passed away he stayed strong, family had to be held together some way after all >when he had to go an hour and a half to school, he never once complained about that >he spent extra time at a part time job and got a car >when it broke, he fixed it >not a single complaint here either >when his woman was sad, he comforted her >gave her a shoulder to cry on >when her water broke, he drove the car to hospital himself >he stayed with her all night >he had not slept, or eaten >but he didn't complain >he simply did what was required >not once did he complain about the child screaming in the night when it wanted closeness >when he had to enlist, he didn't complain >never complained about the food >or the boots that hurt his feet >or the heavy rifle >or the heavy sack on his back >or the long marches >or the cold night hours >he pulled through >Neither did he complain when he had to go to war >the long plane ride >the scorching days >the freezing nights >all the sand >he pulled through >he didn't say anything when the letter came >his wife had betrayed him >She was with someone else now >of course she took the child with her >he couldn't be there to appeal to a court >to plead to see his child one more time >or even ask her “Why?” >But no one wanted to hear him complain >so he kept quiet >Neither did he complain when the only thing he could afford was the smallest of apartments >or at his low paying job >or the nightmares that haunted him >he didn't complain when the only thing his dad left him specifically was that old rifle >his sister was some big shot now >She deserved the rest, apparently >and she didn't want the rifle >of course no one can complain to anyone when you are slowly driven into insanity >he didn't complain to anyone, staring into a noose >or when he went to bed crying, because he thought himself weak >you can't complain to anyone when you're alone >Of course she knew that >She just appeared from the rifle one day >took care of the man >helped to pull him back >helped him clean himself up >helped him get his hope back >his enthusiasm for life back >he didn't have to complain now >he found another work >could pull some more money in >he could start enjoying life >the 28th of October, she was gone >She wasn't at home >the rifle was gone >She didn't take anything with her >just gone >did she leave? >was she taken? >the man had no way to tell >he went to the bottle >it comforted him occasionally >it made him cry and shake >he lost friends >lost interest in everything >the missed calls started piling up on his phone >and then the messages that said “I've had enough with you” >As if that mattered anymore >there wasn't even any point of jumping of a bridge >there wasn't any point in anything >he had simply given up >on life >on joy >on love >seven days turned into a week >four weeks turned into a month >four months turned into a season >he was a dead man walking at this point >A shadow of his former self >his eyes were hollow >his skin was pale >bags under his eyes >four months had he been a ghost >Sometimes he didn’t notice how day turned to night >how he needed to eat >how the neighbours screamed at each other >how the police flew by outside >the occasional shooting >how someone banged on the door “Anyone in there?” >there was someone in here >long ago >just a shell now >the man buried his face in the couch “Please, it’s Bella, anyone in there?” >Bella? >Bella that saved him? >Bella that was just gone one day? >Bella he loved? >He stumbled up from the couch, tripped over some empty box >But soon on his legs again, he made his way towards the door >fumbled with the keys, and the little chain, and... >Bella was there >He couldn’t say much >he tried, but the words came out one by one >They didn’t form any sentences >not any proper ones at least >She didn’t care much >A bold step forwards and embraced him >he cried >This is what it took to make him cry >completely break down >He stood like that for a while >Arms wrapped around her figure >face in her shoulder >on his own porch >The two disappeared inside >It got a little quiet for a while >not much sounds >not much anything >about 10 minutes later, Bella picks up a phone, dials a number she knows by head >A woman answers, chats a little bit and then the line goes quiet >the woman takes the cellphone away from her ear and puts it to her chest It's all… good >She says that, and sounds happy from the bottom of her heart >her only reply is a smile and a nod >just a little later, an old black car rumbles to life and leaves the parking lot, heading away